Ditched for ponies

I started the day out feeling ok. Not great but ok, probably close to good. And then I had my Partylite party. I already knew it would be a small turnout which was depressing to begin with. Partylite was suppose to help me be a stay at home mom, a way to get some extra income. I wasn't expecting much but I haven't been getting any.

I had a guest not bother to show up or call or say they weren't coming. Another told me that "they" were going to let her pet the ponies today so she was going to do that instead. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the people that did show up, but no one placed an order. Not to say that they won't but I just feel hopeless.

After the party was over, I got a text message from the one who ditched me for the ponies and asked me if we were still hanging out. She had told me a few days ago that she couldn't do anything with me because another friend would be home. I told her that I had clean and then find out what was going on with Joe and that I would let her know. I was done cleaning around 5:30 and had talked to Joe a little online but he was coming home at 6. When he got here he was on the phone with his mom so I was delayed in giving her an answer. I get a text message at around 6:45 saying "Are we hanging out or not?" I was like 'Just go out" she argued with me for a few minutes but in reality she wanted to go out with her other friend. She ended up going which would be fine except that every time I try to hang out with her, this is the same friend I get ditched for. She ditched me to go to BW3's a few weeks ago. Why bother if you're going to leave me anyway? I'm ok with you having other plans but instead it feels like I'm being replaced. Like a "I can hangout with you...oh it's 8, I gotta go hang out with..." not "Let's hang out but I have to leave at 8 because I made plans with ...."

I just feel like ever since I got pregnant almost every single one of my friends don't talk to me anymore. I have like one friend and not that that's not ok but I would like to have more people to talk to...Just one or two more :(